Holidays

People are always asking me how are we handling the holidays.  So far, we have made it through Thanksgiving, Christmas, Easter.. the big ones.. we haven't handled it well, because we just aren't celebrating it at all.  Just too many memories right now, so raw and painful.  He was our world, the only grandchild on both sides so without him,  our future, is no longer.. 

For Christmas, I gave special gifts to our family, a framed picture of Wes and also a pillow made from his shirts (a dear friend helped me with that). 

Maybe next year.. we can do something to honor Wesly.. maybe with some candles.. some stories.. 

The holidays, I imaged being much worse than they were.  Every day I think about Wes anyways, so the holidays was no different in that respect.  Just that the special holiday memories  hurt  deeper than usual.  I honestly don't know how families with other children are even able to do it.